one step at a time

Last night there was an off sounding violin in my room (a mosquito)! It clearly came from the era of Greek mythology and had my gender completely confused. It mistook me for the greatest, handsomest and bravest warrior of that time, and branded me as such.

It only bit me twice, from what I can tell, for the itches are isolated to those two areas. Both heels – where my ‘Achilles’ tendon begins ๐Ÿ˜› ๐Ÿ˜› ๐Ÿ˜›

As I sit here typing, I realise that I have been AWOL for a few days again – where has the time gone?

Do you ever sit and think about all the things you feel you need to do – ‘and the necessity to get up and go’ – and then you suddenly notice how much time has passed and realise you need to get going, and so you stand up…. and the wave of knowledge crashes over you : your ‘get up and go’ has already ‘got up and went’. ๐Ÿ˜› ๐Ÿ˜‰

I have accomplished and fulfilled the commitments of the last few days, even though some have been difficult. But there have been other things that I committed to in my mind and would really like to have got done. They’re still waiting. Today is a new day though, and I can always see how far I can get ๐Ÿ˜‰
I DO, however, have a lunchtime commitment that will be a bit exhausting… but I am determined to come home and try and tackle at least one of the things I ‘need’ to do.

Because that is life. There is MUCH to be done. And it can be overwhelming when we take into account the amount of tasks and goals and dreams that come with being alive.

As a woman, and a mother, there is an incredible ability instilled in me to multi task. However, I have had to learn that sometimes that in itself can lead to feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. Sometimes, even when everything on the list seems to be urgent and a priority, it still helps to focus on only one at a time. Because in order to do it well, it needs your full attention!

This is a battle/lesson in growth that remains on the surface of my brain. I cannot do it all – and if I want to do things to the best of my ability, then I need to give each one its own space and time and attention.

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One more thought before I go : being like a child.
Yesterday I attended a children’s birthday party. It was the party of the boys who live across from me in our townhouse complex (cluster of houses within the boundaries of fencing almost like a gated community).
These boys are adopted. The oldest arrived at about 8 months old. The youngest was only 4 months when he moved in. I immediately bonded with the youngest because I was called on on his first day home to help. The new mom was uncertain and didn’t know quite what to do with this little baby who wouldn’t stop crying. I’ve had a lot of experience, and I also seem to have the ‘baby touch’, so off I went to help. As he has grown, the catch phrase has always been that he is ‘Aunty Meg’s Baby/Child’.

Yesterday we celebrated the oldest being 7, and ‘my baby’ being 6. Time has flown!
As I sat for two hours and watched the fifteen odd children running and playing and swimming and laughing, I was reminded of the joy and pleasure of youth. And the excitement of something as simple as a birthday, which a lot of us try and hide from as we grow older.

And I remembered my own childlike amazement and wonder, and laughter and excitement, when I had the opportunity of exploring the UK with my dad. Even with regards to simple things that others who live there get to see and experience every day.
Yes, everyone could tell I was a tourist in a way – but I also think that some looked at me and saw a child in an adult’s body – my awe and laughter was akin to that!

Of course you know where this path of thought is taking me, right?

Life is really serious when you are an adult. There is a lot of responsibility that comes with being a grown up. Especially when you have children who rely on you.
But you still need to find the moments where you can think like a child – the serious considerations are to not see colour, or status; to withhold judgments and just be kind and see THE PERSON as opposed to everything else.

The not so serious considerations? To remember that there are simple things that can elicit laughter and a happy euphoria.

Today, I shall throw caution to the wind (diet out the window ๐Ÿ˜› ) and eat ice cream with my ‘not-so-much kids anymore’ and I might even search out my copy of Enid BlytonThe Enchanted Wood‘, and reconnect with Silky, Moonface and the dear old Saucepan Man. ๐Ÿ˜‰
I wish I still had my Victoria Plum book collection, and duvet/comforter set ๐Ÿ™‚

8 thoughts on “one step at a time

  1. I am so happy you were blessed with that subtle reminder of joy…in spite of all things that grown-up’s must face (and sometimes, with an exhausting eye roll)

    ‘As a woman, and a mother, there is an incredible ability instilled in me to multi task. However, I have had to learn that sometimes that in itself can lead to feeling overwhelmed and exhausted.’

    You could not have been more right with that statement, and yet…..we will keep pushing. One thing at time. I am still learning to no crumble under the pressure of not being able to get everything done in 24 hours. These days, I am content if 1 or 2 things are knocked off the list per day. My lists have decreased as well. You are doing an outstanding job with all of your babies….even the ones you did not birth!
    You are fearfully and wonderfully made! โค๏ธ๐ŸŽ€โค๏ธ

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  2. Hi Meg,
    I too have been absent again for a few days although I have many different reasons.
    I have to admit that as you used the word overwhelmed it resonates a great deal with me and unfortunately I have a tendency to back away from people and situations as well as social media etc.

    I think that today we have a sense of having to be connected in everything that we do.
    I have recently started working at a local lettings agency and whereas Kath and I used to be together a lot of the time now I am away from the house for at least 3 to 4 days a week and therefore I try to spend more time with her at the cost of everything else.

    I am glad that you had the opportunity to spend time with your adopted family because I think that being around children really helps to keep us grounded.
    I hope that you enjoyed the rest of your weekend and that you and your family are well and enjoy the next week โค๏ธ๐Ÿ™

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  3. Meg,
    You wrote about responsibility at the time I was writing about the same. I am recklessly trying to bring my responsibilities to an end (although some are for life as you correctly say) by learning to say โ€œNoโ€ which is contrary to my nature but proving so rewarding. I suspect Iโ€™ve been where you are and I know all to well looking at the endless list of things that need to be done, all disguised as urgent. Actually they are not all so urgent and some arenโ€™t even necessary as I have learnt. I read recently that things gain energy in proportion to the attention that we give them and it seems to be true. And people will insist on our time and attention but actually many can be put off, some are just emotional and psychic vampires and would take every minute we can give them. Their need to go if you love yourself and finding time to love yourself is your first priority because it is from here you will find strength to love others. You first, which I think is something you miss on, other next.
    Love your children, then those special friends and, if thereโ€™s any left move out from there. I keep my relational circle small because thatโ€™s where Iโ€™m comfortable but it still requires time, effort, and, yes, responsibility.
    Have I just counselled you. Hope you donโ€™t mind? Sorry if you do.
    Off to read Wind In The Willows (my Enid Blyton) because I love the language.
    Wic

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