I woke up

I woke up this morning.

That is all.

But I was reminded the other day, when I reread something, that waking up is enough.

It’s enough to be thankful for, and to celebrate.

No matter what the day ahead holds – I WOKE UP.

So many don’t.

The last few days have been tumultuous – a loud confused noise. I will no doubt blog about it soon enough – in fact I NEED to write so desperately.

BUT, the load on my shoulders has been increased; I have had added responsibility placed on me – the type where none of it is in my control, and yet I am expected to ‘solve things’ and stay on top of everything. I am still confused as to who thought it was a good idea to place the extra emotional, and some physical (she IS in a care home) responsibility of my mother on me entirely, when I am the SINGLE WOMAN with two dependents living under my roof that I am already physically and emotionally responsible for.  But I’ll get to that in another blog post.

At the moment, I am physically and emotionally exhausted by 17:00 every day, to the point where I can’t even have a decent conversation – the impossible heat has not helped. (It rained during the night though and this morning is decidedly cooler – a welcome reprieve from what had become debilitating heat.) I go to bed by 21:00 and sleep right through anything and everything. I get up at 05:00, and feel my strength has returned and I am able to face whatever the day ahead wants to give me… only to find that waning by 11:00.

However, this too shall pass. At the moment, it feels like it’s going to pass like a kidney stone 😛 But that too shall improve 😉 I have to believe there are better days ahead.

And besides, I WOKE UP THIS MORNING!

Something else I was reminded of….

A story, that is actually quite applicable to my current situation in so many ways.

“A man saw a snake being burned to death and decided to take it out of the fire. When he did, the snake bit him. The bite caused excruciating pain, the man dropped the snake, and the reptile fell right back into the fire. The man tried to pull it out again and again the snake bit him.

Someone who was watching approached the man and said:
“Excuse me, but don’t you understand that every time you try to get the snake out of the fire, it’s going to bite you? Why are you being stubborn?”

The man replied:
“The nature of the snake is to bite, but that’s not gonna change my nature, which is to help.”

So, with the help of a metal pole, the man took the snake out of the fire and saved its life.

Do not change your nature simply because someone harms you. Do not lose your essence, only take precautions. Worry more about your conscience than your reputation. Your conscience is what you are, and your reputation is simply what others think of you – and what other people think is not your problem… it’s theirs.”

I will catch on blog posts, hopefully tomorrow.

For now, I hope everyone is well and happy. And that you all woke up this morning 😉