I woke up

I woke up this morning.

That is all.

But I was reminded the other day, when I reread something, that waking up is enough.

It’s enough to be thankful for, and to celebrate.

No matter what the day ahead holds – I WOKE UP.

So many don’t.

The last few days have been tumultuous – a loud confused noise. I will no doubt blog about it soon enough – in fact I NEED to write so desperately.

BUT, the load on my shoulders has been increased; I have had added responsibility placed on me – the type where none of it is in my control, and yet I am expected to ‘solve things’ and stay on top of everything. I am still confused as to who thought it was a good idea to place the extra emotional, and some physical (she IS in a care home) responsibility of my mother on me entirely, when I am the SINGLE WOMAN with two dependents living under my roof that I am already physically and emotionally responsible for.Β  But I’ll get to that in another blog post.

At the moment, I am physically and emotionally exhausted by 17:00 every day, to the point where I can’t even have a decent conversation – the impossible heat has not helped. (It rained during the night though and this morning is decidedly cooler – a welcome reprieve from what had become debilitating heat.) I go to bed by 21:00 and sleep right through anything and everything. I get up at 05:00, and feel my strength has returned and I am able to face whatever the day ahead wants to give me… only to find that waning by 11:00.

However, this too shall pass. At the moment, it feels like it’s going to pass like a kidney stone πŸ˜› But that too shall improve πŸ˜‰ I have to believe there are better days ahead.

And besides, I WOKE UP THIS MORNING!

Something else I was reminded of….

A story, that is actually quite applicable to my current situation in so many ways.

“A man saw a snake being burned to death and decided to take it out of the fire. When he did, the snake bit him. The bite caused excruciating pain, the man dropped the snake, and the reptile fell right back into the fire. The man tried to pull it out again and again the snake bit him.

Someone who was watching approached the man and said:
β€œExcuse me, but don’t you understand that every time you try to get the snake out of the fire, it’s going to bite you? Why are you being stubborn?”

The man replied:
β€œThe nature of the snake is to bite, but that’s not gonna change my nature, which is to help.”

So, with the help of a metal pole, the man took the snake out of the fire and saved its life.

Do not change your nature simply because someone harms you. Do not lose your essence, only take precautions. Worry more about your conscience than your reputation. Your conscience is what you are, and your reputation is simply what others think of you – and what other people think is not your problem… it’s theirs.”

I will catch on blog posts, hopefully tomorrow.

For now, I hope everyone is well and happy. And that you all woke up this morning πŸ˜‰

13 thoughts on “I woke up

  1. This was lovely. Keep on fighting πŸ’™πŸ’™. And getting good sleep πŸ™‚πŸ€—. You have such good coping strategies/qualities.

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  2. I am once again impressed with your honesty and the way that you bear your heart and soul to your followers and I am especially grateful for the fact that you woke up. 😊
    I understand your feelings because I know from personal experience that a person can only take so much, I have found on many occasions that I become so overwhelmed with trying to keep up with work, home and family commitments, social media etc etc.
    Time is a most precious commodity which we’re never really sure about how long we have.
    I hope that you get some rest, support and energy to carry on with your daily routine and be the helping person that you are πŸ˜ŠπŸ™πŸ˜˜β˜•πŸ°
    I hope that things will improve for you in all directions and become less stressful. πŸ™πŸ˜˜
    My thoughts and prayers reach out to you and your family πŸ™ ❀️

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    1. Thank you so much, Paul. For always taking the time to read and comment when you have so many commitments of your own. ❀ I trust that you and Kath are well, and hope you have a lovely, restful weekend.

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      1. Time management is not my strongest point at the moment but I try to post and comment on the people that I care about 😊
        I watch your posts in particular because I believe that we have made a connection, I value very much your friendship and support and I hope that I am able to be reciprocate that level of love and support.
        I hope that you feel that I am the kind of friend that you are able to rely on for encouragement and support ❀️ πŸ™ πŸ€—

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      2. As I do you ❀️
        I know how difficult it can be when you have so much going on in your life to prioritise but I would encourage you to try and schedule some me time and do something that you enjoy doing. 😊
        We live quite close to the coast and in the summer in particular we will just take off to the beach πŸ– and forget about everything that is going on around us.
        Kath enjoys gardening and pottering around tending the flowers and such.
        When I am indoors I listen to music whilst ironing and find it really therapeutic.
        I know that it is easier said than done but I hope that you are able to make some time for you πŸ€—πŸ™

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  3. Yes, you woke up, and so did the rest of us that read this post. You are sounding somewhat philosophical though and it’s not unusual to get into this kind of a funk. I know I do a lot of the times, and I guess it’s part and parcel of waking up each day, which is an excellent thing and am very grateful for. Enjoy!

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